The Awesome Adams!: February 2014

Long story short Jordan's body was cremated and we were blessed enough to have his remains buried this last Wed. (Feb. 5, 2014). We buried him at the Lehi, Utah cemetery. We wanted him buried near my Grandma Loveridge and they have a sweet baby cemetery there where we were able to bury him. We are grateful for the family members that were able to attend. We wanted to keep things simple. I had my sister read a letter I wrote to Jordan, a scripture on the resurrection was shared, and then Trent said the dedicatory prayer over the grave. We also had an opening and closing song, "I Feel My Savior's Love" and "Families Can Be Together Forever." I have felt more peace since Jordan's burial. It is nice to have his remains buried and in a dedicated grave. I don't know why that has helped so much, but it really has brought so much more peace to my heart. Here are the words I wrote to Jordan.

A Mother’s Words to Her Stillborn Son

My Dearest Jordan,

There are some things I want to express to you today, things I want you to know. Your father and I are so grateful to have had the blessing of YOU in our lives. We love you. Your time with us on earth, however unfortunately short it was, has meant so much to us. Thank you for teaching me to love more, to feel more, to give more, and to hope for more.

Through losing you I have come to learn and understand more. I have come to feel sorrow and have learned to turn to my Father in Heaven and Savior, Jesus Christ. I have felt greatly of their comfort and healing. Thank you for teaching me to turn to them. Thank you for teaching me to place my faith and trust more fully in them. Through this sorrow I have also learned how to serve more as the Savior did. Thank you for these blessings. Thank you for helping me become more than I used to be.

I also want to thank you for the closeness you have brought to our family. Your father and I have learned to turn to one another more sincerely and to support and uplift one another during your loss. This has strengthened our relationship meaningfully. I have also learned to love your brother, Tanner, more deeply and appreciate him more fully. Losing you has helped me cherish the time I have with him even more than I did before, so thank you.

Jordan, you are a part of our family and we will always remember you. You will never be left behind or forgotten. You will forever be in our memories and always in our thoughts. We love you! I shout for joy when I think of our Savior Jesus Christ. I will forever praise and give thanks for his perfect atonement. Because he is risen, we too will one day rise! I wait in anticipation for that glorious day when we will be reunited. Until then my son, please know and continually feel of my love for you.

Much love,

your indebted Mother

This is the bag the hospital gave me of Jordan's ashes

We wanted Jordan to have a dinosaur with him

We also buried Jordan with the book, "Are You My Mother?" My grandma Loveridge used to read this book to me when I was little. I always asked her to read it to me, it was my favorite! She gave me this book when I was older. It has some words written in it to me from her. When we found a cardboard version of this book at the store while looking for the dinosaur it just felt right to bury Jordan with it. With him being born on my Grandma's birthday, it was just another tender mercy from the Lord to see this book and have him buried with it. The final words in the book read, "...you are my mother." I am grateful for the atonement and the plan of salvation that will allow for us to be reunited with our sweet baby Jordan after this life.